Monday, October 19, 2009

Suicide Prevention Training Workshop Post, Part 2

I was thinking about this downstairs as I tried to clear my mind while separating pumpkin seeds from pumpkin innards. I guess this is what I wanted to say in the last post, in case it wasn't clear:

If you feel suicidal, I'm sorry. 
I hope you get the help you deserve;
I do care. 
I want to try to do as much as I can to help, but I'm not perfect, 
Just well-intentioned. 

If I don't notice, 
I'm sorry. 
Sometimes I notice that you're depressed but I don't know what to do; 
I'm sorry. 
Sometimes I notice you're depressed when I'm also depressed, and I don't have the emotional energy to do much more than just keep myself functioning; 
I'm sorry.  

Sometimes I can relate to you and your pain;
I'm sorry that you're going through this.
Sometimes I can't relate to your pain;
I'm just as sorry that you're going through this.

Sometimes I say the wrong thing;
I'm sorry.
Sometimes I can only look on helplessly, giving you the half-smile-half-grimace of sympathy like this :-/ ;
I'm sorry.
When you're feeling sad, or hopeless, or lost,
I really am sorry.

I do want to try to help,
But I don't always know;
I don't always know the perfect thing to do;
I don't always know what will make you better.
But please know that I care.
I appreciate you, and
My life would be emptier without you.

1 comment:

  1. I've thought all of those things, but only rarely been able to voice them or even put them into words. And it's hard to speak if you don't have the words.